I made a folk-pop song about the emotional limbo of one of my situationships.
I fell for someone that I shouldn’t have. Not unique at all, but true. He was inconsistent — capable of passion but equally capable of withdrawal — and I got caught up in my care for him although I wasn’t ever fully chosen.
When writing the song, I chose a central fairytale metaphor to express this feeling - arriving at his castle and finding the gates half-open: not a warm welcome, not a refusal, just ambiguity.
The mood of the song quickly became introspective, bittersweet, but also somewhat empowering, built around piano, guitar, and two-part harmonies, and composed with two amazing songwriting friends <3.
Enjoy!
Lyrics
Hello,
Feel like a scary shadow to you
Can I say hello
Do you think it might way too soon
Showing up underneath the full moon
Hello,
I’m sorry if I gave the wrong impression
Can I say hello
Promised to keep my heart to myself
But I love you too much I can’t help
With your perfect lips
and the way that you kiss
And Im waiting
Longing craving
And I’ve been so patient
Feel like my time is wasted
Do you feel it too?
Life again
Disappoints me for having an open heart
All the pain that you caused me
Just isn’t worth the gain (Just isn’t worth it !!!)
All my predictions are contradicting
cause you’re hot and cold
Cause you don’t know what you want
Life again
Shows me I’m falling for the wrong one
I’m the one worth fighting for
High hopes going up the stairs of your kingdom
Im the one you left behind don’t try to lie to me
The road has been too long I’m tired of chasing you all along, all alone
Ive been trying to flirt my way into your heart
I seem to fail every time since the start
It doesn’t seem fair I’m the one who’s trying hard
You give me half opened gates only to lead me on
(x2)
Hello
Feel like a scary shadow to you
Should I say hello?
Do you think it might way too soon
Showing up underneath the full moon